Fuck "Normal"

 I'm NOT "normal." I never have been, and I never will be. I've been sitting in this room for 19 years now. Last time I worked was sometime in March 2003. I tried college before that. Quit because I wasn't learning anything useful. I refused to memorize useless info about the AT&T monopoly when I was supposed to be learning how to setup computer networks. I never had any real direction. I just always wanted someone to love. That hasn't happened, at least not in the expected way. Everyone else prioritizes careers and education so much nowadays it makes me sick. Should have nothing to do with love, but I'm basically undateable because I don't work, don't drive, and live with my parents. I sit here, binge watching the same dozen or so TV shows and maybe find a videogame worth playing once in a blue moon. I basically gave up. Never had many friends. Don't have any that are local anymore. I was always socially awkward. After a certain point, I just had no use for people. The one friend who truly means anything to me is like 500 miles away.

My family is a total shit show. Never much cared about any of them. Haven't even been to a funeral in 10 or 12 years now. We don't have contact with any of them now that my mother's siblings are fighting over my grandfather's estate, after knowingly exposing him to covid in the first place and stealing a ton of shit from the house. So it's just my parents, and I don't give a shit about them. I'm literally sitting here waiting for the fuckers to die. My mother is a paranoid, overprotective cunt, and my father is just an asshole. Think I'm exaggerating? When he was raising chinchillas back in the 90s, I got to the point where I said they were his fucking animals and I wasn't doing his bullshit chores anymore; he threatened to shoot my dog, and he fucking would have. I haven't claimed ownership of any pet around here since and have also maintained zero responsibility for taking care of them. My mother? I don't even know where to begin. Took me until I was almost 33 to find a first date, and that one dumped me after 2 months because she couldn't stand my mother. It was winter time and the bitch always kept me from driving anytime it snowed. Psycho will threaten to disown me or have me committed anytime I try to go against her. Like I said, I've given up. SSI isn't enough to live on my own, and it's not worth it being alone anyway. I sit here waiting for the cunt to drop dead, so I can have my inheritance.